I am the kind of person who’ll be there with youeven after a fight that ended catastrophically,
because you say you need me
And I’ll hold onto you
I’ll hold onto to your words that you uttered when you promised me that you will always be that wall,
Promised me to hold me when I fall,
I’ll hold onto it because you told me once that sometimes you unconsciously drift apart because of reasons that you yourself fail to understand
But this isn’t drifting apart
This is falling apart
Our friendship is falling apart
The bridge that connects us is falling apart
All the love that I try to send goes down that broken bridge,
Down that dark empty pit,
And is never found
Because you think you have found the one
Let me tell you,
It is just another one of those thousand guys,
But you think he is the one,
Because you hadn’t had anyone for a while
And the first guy that comes along,
Gives you relief,
Like he is the rain in the desert of your thoughts.
But he is not.
I can see it.
I tried to protect you.
I have kept you with so much delicacy,
But you want to go down that lane where you can feel his kiss against your lips
But at the end of it,
He is going to break your heart.
But you still want to live it.
I’d let you.
I cannot be your shield when you want to take the bullet deliberately
And it is of no use
I am exhausted now
I am tired
I’d let you do whatever you want
I’ll just sit here, take long breaths,
And then I’ll try to remember where I went wrong
And when could have been the right time
When could I have stopped you
Maybe a little early
Or a lot
But I’d be too tired to even think of it
I’d just lay down
And wait for my zeal to come back
So that I can get up and run
Fast and wild
Till my lungs hurt
Some place which may give me solace
Some dark cottage,
Or a bright, airy surrounding with waters that run deep
I’d swim and go on to the other side
Water dripping out of my hair
Clothes wet, feet bare
Would that be what devastation feels like
I’d be clean
It’d be just some dives into deep and hike
And by the time you’d try to tell me that you miss me,
I’ll be long gone
You may try to scream
But I won’t hear you
Some water would have gone in my ears
And now I’d just hear stillness,
I’d like it.
You’d lose me,
You’d be alone,
Everyone would know that
He is not the one.